I alway tried to think “Well wait! Not so fast you don’t have it yet.” or I tried to think of what would happen if I didn’t get the Summer Leadership Institute but I never actually considered the idea of actually not getting it. Not a single time. It was in my Summer plans as an “if”, but only until it was confirmed affirmative.
It never occurred to me that I actually wouldn’t get it. So what now? I’m watching all of my Fellow Colleagues post on Facebook about how they got they got it and I feel like I’m the only one. I know that I’m not the only one.
I’m on the waitlist for something that people just don’t turn down, and I bet that everyone who didn’t get it is on the waitlist. So it’ll take more than one person to turn it down for me to attend if I’m so lucky.
So my luck and ability to attend depends on someone else’s inability to attend, which is a thought that I don’t like so much because it will be one of my Colleagues that will be unable to attend and I want all of us to have the ability to go, which just isn’t possible.
I have so many opportunities and I’ve had such good fortune lately that good news can’t be far away. It seems silly to be sad when I list off the great things that have happened for me. This just means that I was meant to experience something different this summer.
:)